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Monday, October 2nd, 2006
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I felt compelled to write a journal entry which is odd. It's been a while. I just had another encounter with wildlife. This time a balding squirrel...sunbathing on our "porch". Slowly becoming less of a person who tolerates animals, hehe.
Some of things I've been up to in the last month or so:
* Italy! 'Twas truly beyond all expectations. I adored it, and unless something happens to me I'll be going back there - but not to meet that scary boy they tried to hook me up with (I felt like such an old maid)! Okay, so not everything was rosy but for the first time I felt comfortable with being me - not walking with my head lowered to the ground - and it was an amazing feeling. My return back to Canada has had its ups and downs. Sure, Canada is technically "home" so I wanted to see my family again but I can't help but think I've left a part of me up in the mountains (and a bit near the sea). I will shake my fist at the jerk(s) who stole my carry on as all my hard-copy memories of the trip were there. But I'll always have the memories which I really wish I could share with others in pictorial form. I still haven't been able to grasp what that experience did to me or how it changed my outlook on life. All I know is that unless jetlag last for a hugely long time - life here just seems unsatisfactory which is a shame because there is so much that I should be appreciating right now.
*Film festival. It was a cool experience. Unless you count the Governor General famous, I didn't really see anyone or at least no one that I know. That young fellow from Alex Rider: blah blah walked by me but really does that count? I saw some enjoyable movies (bonus that they were free) and some horrible ones. It seemed I kept getting stuck in French films. One was quite well done called 'Le Voyage en Armenie' (insert accents somewhere). Serious yet witty - perfect combo in my eyes. The other was so French. Christine, Matt and I were intending to see 'The Pervert's Guide to Cinema' but there were no more seats so to avoid seeing a French movie called 'Coeurs' we took 'Cages'. We spent the first little bit wondering if we were in the theater for 'Couers' *sigh*. So bad! All I'll say is it had elements of hostage, marriage, adultery, rape and animal imitation. It is doubtful it will ever hit mainstream media but just in case - BEWARE! Hehe. I saw a screening with Jennie called 'Pleasure of Your Company' with that fellow from 'American Pie' and the Vince's girl in 'Wedding Crashers'. I was amused...hehe. I suggest seeing it. Also saw some shorts with Jennie which was great! It's a shame that those type of art are not more readily accessible. I saw 'Penelope'. The crowd seemed to love it but it was so not my type of movie. I wouldn't reccommend. All in all, I met some really interesting people (there were exceptions like a bitchy girl who was so by-the-book that I wanted to punch her), got some free stuff and would have to say that I did enjoy myself.
*School. It's there. I'm so scared for this year. Uncertainty scares the shit out of me. Delay! Delay! Delay! Gah - something tells me that this might come back to bite me in the ass.
*New apartment. I enjoy where I'm living now. Sure it's not the biggest - but I like it and it's functional. Plus I'm so close to campus finally! The roomies are cool and really no complaints (strange - that's the name of the song that just came on) from me! It's great not having to procrastinate alone hehe.
*Nuit Blanche. It was a great night in TO. My favourite was the Roy and Silo's gay divorce. What is there not to love about Penguins? I also loved the mist along Philosopher's walk. I'm glad I was able to go. Alicia has a quality in-depth recap of the night. Yes, I'm a lazy bum that doesn't feel like writing it all out. I will say there are some unfortunate fashion styles going on this season (you know you're going to be in trouble when In Style lists some must haves of the season as tights, skinny jeans, animal prints, mini-skirts and rather hideous shoes). I think the worse including a dude in skinny jeans (he was saying to his friend 'They're in the alley doing drugs' which gave me a possible reason for his poor choice), a girl in cheetah print capri tights and another in ankle tights in shiny metallic gold with absolutely nothing partially covering her not-so-in-shape ass (my eyes!).
*Lab. At the moment I'm not doing much. I think I was getting in shit the other day but she was being so nice. I'm rather confused at most times...hehe. My shining moment came last week - let gel boil over in the microwave. I really don't know how to work those things. At least the 'experiment' turned out.
*Volunteering. I've signed up to volunteer again in the Special Ed classroom where I was last year. I'm looking forward to it - I miss those little kiddies.
*Random stuff: I'm addicted to Pacman (making up for some childhood lackings perhaps?). Jennie got me hooked on this kooky British show called Extras. I sadly must admit I watched bits of Celebrity Duets (damn Muchmore Music for always playing it). I can't tell you how happy I would have been if Carlton had won WHILE singing a duet with Tom Jones. That was the main reason I watched the Finale, but alas it was not to be. Sarah and I were flipping through channels and all it took was about 1 minute for us to go from utter confusion (due to Al Rooney on 60 minutes) to drooling over treats being shown at a bakery to running to the computer in a frenzy of delight knowing that indeed this 'Sweet tooth' bakery is located near us! A trip there is in the making. I'll keep you posted...hehe. I've been catching bits of soccer matches...yes the obsession continues. The other day I was screaming at the TV for two teams I had never even heard of (as I'm not a fan of the English leagues). I wonder if my roommate thought me crazy, hehe. I've heard that 'I am a Sex Addict' is on DVD. I want to see it! Anyone with me? Hehe.
Okay I can't wait for TURKEY! Mmmm...and with that I shall take off to prepare dinner.
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Tuesday, August 15th, 2006
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I just walked outside to get the mail, looked to my side and there was a racoon sleeping in a flower pot. I proceeded to slam the screen door followed by the actual door. Wow, that got me shaking a little. I called my mommy to lament. I went back and started banging on the screen door in hope's that the little guy would leave. That only caused him to rouse a little, and then go right back to his spastic-breathing slumber. Gah, I don't like wildlife on my steps....quite literally. I'm counting on the soothing sounds of AC/DC to calm me down...hehe.
Now I can only wonder if I missed some other creature when I came home last night and the power was out. Seriously, this is the second time that the power has been out and it's been localized to our very small section of the street.
What does this all mean? I should never live alone, as I'm a huge sissy!
In other news, the AIDS conference has been quite cool. I've really done nothing except directed people towards the bathroom, held doors and supposedly "checked" badges...pfft! In return for this great show of effort, I've got to see Bill Gates up close (not that that's really all the cool), gone to the opening ceremony (my favourite part was the knocking of Harper...ha!), been handed food, heard Stephen Lewis speak, met some interesting people in the process (although I could do away with the uptight ones - seriously, you're just a volunteer) and some other stuff that slips my mind.
Okay, I guess I should study a little. Ha, this exam tomorrow should be interesting. Must stop thinking about the furry creature outside! I'll deal with him when I go out in a bit....gah!
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Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
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Not even sure why I'm updating this thing. Perhaps it's the fact that I'm all by my lonesome (all the roomies are gone), and the people who I usually call/talk to in order to relieve my boredom aren't talking to me. I'd scream "FINE!" but it really isn't.
Oh well, I'll get over it and hopefully they will too.
Maybe I will focus on the good: Italy, two weeks tomorrow. That's a little better I guess...
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So I decided to do a "me" update just cause....not sure if any one actually cares but what the hell, I'm bored!
These are some of the things I've been up to this past month:
*Toronto Street Festival. Went with Alicia and had a great time checking out the different sights and seeing the greatness that is Yonge Street. Points of interest included the totally awesome huge-ass LCBO, the posh stores that makes you forget the raunchiness of what I used to think of as "Yonge St", Cupcake Store (mmmm mint chocolate-ty goodness!), cemetary advertising all it's available space, and too many others to list (plus my memory is pretty short).
*Festival of Fire. The family came down to watch the finale with me which was cool. Or at least it would have been if they hadn't complained about how little there was to see *sigh*. I for one, liked the fireworks!
*Seeing the World Cup trophy hoisted by "my" team. The craziness and joy that was Corso Italia was awesome! So glad that I didn't decide to stay at home and watch it by myself.
*Dessert Party. It finally happened, yay!
*Horseback riding. Went with Rotchill to a place in Port Colborne, and it was so much fun! I had the nicest horse named Lacey (even though I was a little leary at first...hehe). My ass was a little sore a couple days after, but so worth it. Funny and weird things include the pony deciding to scratch his ass and our guide thinking Rotchill and I were mother and daughter (WTF?).
*PartiGras. Went with Cyn and Ryan (seemed like forever since I've seen these two) to the Beaches Jazz Festival down in the Distillery District. It was fun, although the musician should stick to what they're good at which is NOT comedy, or trying to be sexual like Dr. Draw...hehe. Also made a stop at Soma where I had some wonderful gelato. Venezualan Chocolate and Raspberry...yum! For a bit I was walking back to the subway station alone, which was interesting. I think I actually saw real life hookers (don't ask...)! Walking along the Yorkville region of Bloor was sort of amazing and sad. Seeing people cleaning and keeping guard of these super ritzy stores while working probably close to minimum wage is so sad. Here are these places that are just frothing with money, and yet those who keep it looking so posh and fashionable are the ones that wouldn't even warrant a 'hello' if they walked in the doors. If I ever had money, I hope I'd be kind to the so called "little people". Okay, I know, life ain't fair....
*Signing up for volunteering. If all works out, I'll be helping out with the International AIDS Conference and the Toronto Film Festival, both of which I can't wait for!
*Books. So I've had a chance to visit a couple libraries and managed to read some of the books off my "To Read" list. Recent reads include: Sex, Drugs and Cocoa Puffs (Klosterman), Typhoid Mary (Bourdain), Dance Dance Dance (Murakami), Platform and The Elementary Particles (both Houellebecq). I want to ask some one what they think of the last two. I did enjoy them but I could see some people considering them sort of trashy...meh! At the moment I'm still working on Roth's American Pastoral.
Okay, so those are about it for the highlights. I guess I'll officially say that I'm going to be living with Sarah P next year. I can't wait to be back downtown! *dances*
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| Subject: | *snooze* |
| Time: | 7:53 am. |
| Mood: |  excited. | | Music: | lady in red - chris de burgh. |
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My topic of conversation has been very dry lately...all I have in the head is: il calcio! soccer! football! God I love the beautiful game! I'm going to avoid discussing it, as I know hardly anyone I know shares this love. But I have to vent some things! Although my Italian team did win I felt really bad for the Australians. I thought my heart was going to give out on me! The quarterfinals are shaping up to have some awesome encounters! Matches that I practically drool at the prospect! Argentina v Germany! England v Portugal! I hope they don't turn out suck face like the Portugal v Netherlands game that I was eagerly anticipating, only to be hideously disappointed with. What a disgrace to the sport! My Spanish boys play today, and it will be my first time seeing them play this year, really hoping it's not the last.
Okay last soccer thing of the day. I was shocked to find out this guy is a day YOUNGER than me!
I have exams this week. I had one last night and got back an essay. I'm confused! It would appear my mark is either 40, 70, 90, C/C (?) or something else. Based on her comments I think the 40% can be ruled out, I know it was not worth a 90, but if that's a 7, then I have to re-learn numbers. I'm going to assume it's something else or 70. It's weird because everything else she had to say was so clearly written! Oh well, perhaps they will post the marks. Yet again, philosophy manages to get the best of me! Hehe.
I had the most bizarre dream last night. I had feathers growing at random intervals on my head. Whenever I or someone else would "pluck" one, another would quickly start to grow. I scare myself sometimes! The other weird part was that I found others that had the same thing happen, one of them was Alicia! She was able to hide her feathers though, not really sure how but I think through keeping the pesky things in braids. Ohh, I don't know. Why can't I have my normal sexy dreams? Perhaps X-men got to my brain in some weird way, or maybe my thoughts of wanting a cool bird (Flint=ass-face jerk...hehe) is coming through?
EEEeee! Can't wait for super-long weekend. It will be filled with ****** watching, reading, just lounging, and perhaps dessert party (here's looking at you Jan!). After Thursday's exam I don't have class until Wednesday! Time to be a lazy bum!
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Okay, not sure what happened to that quiz entry posting...some how it still has Jan LJ cut...tried to fix it, but obviously failed!
So the World Cup has begun, and I'm so loving it. If only we had a sports channel here, then I'd be f***** lovin' it! As of yet, all of my teams that I follow fondly, have won. Let's see how Spain does tomorrow. I've been catching web text coverage, which does not do the game justice. Okay, enough talk about soccer.
What else is new...
*picked two tomatoes from my garden...yes!
*my parents have a bunny in their garden, it's so cute! Damn him for eating their broccoli though.
*I might actually get to see my brother this weekend...it's been a while.
*this diet analysis makes me question what the hell I've been eating.
*wrote an essay this week, about cochlear implants. Many thanks to Jennie for the help! I haven't written an essay ESSAY since highschool....scary.
*philosophy is beyond me, but then again so are most humanities courses.
*might be doing something this week that is very unlike me...I'll let you know....
As you can see, life is boring, as always.
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I went to volunteer, but no one was there....*sigh* I figure I should use the extra time to do something productive.....HA!
This weekend was enjoyable...
Friday I cooked for the mommy, in celebration of her new car. As I rethink this, perhaps I should have taken her out instead. I tried to make a "healthy meal"-well my estimation of healthy. It consisted of a three mushroom bruschetta (on a lovely olive brule), baked fennel and dill sole, fennel, argula and "garden" lettuce with raspberries, citrus and a poppy seed vinegrette (I forgot the cashews...). Dessert was a raspberry chocolate marble gelato with fresh raspberries and blueberries and orange peel, and I made a drink of strawberry, lime, lemon and orange "smoothie". After eating, we proceeded to go shopping. As we left Limeridge, we saw a girl wearing a very short kilt. I stated, "That certainly looks like the regulation 4 inches", to which my mom replied along the lines of, "Perhaps she confused knees with pussy." There is no doubt where I get my crude humour from.
I then read. I've got a few books on the go. I recently finished Stanley Park by Timothy Taylor (my first book on the 'To Read' list) and really enjoyed it (you were so right Kate!). Since I did like it, I wanted Story House...so I proceed to Robarts, where the computer claims it is "in". But oh no it isn't...or at least not in the right place. Instead I got the book that I posted in the last entry. I then had to proceed to the Pratt library. I'm happy to say that I was able to locate the door, as well as my book (go me, hehe!). So at the moment I'm reading Story House, Jpod, House of Leaves and Waterland. Other books I want to read include: Dance, Dance, Dance (another book that Robarts claims to "have in"...boo!), Gun, with Occasional Music, Kitchen Confidential, Nasty Bits, Adverbs, The Elementary Particles (wanted to read this forever, if I like this author I also want to check out Platform and Whatever), Poppy Shakespeare (I think this will only amount to me mocking it..), Alternatives to Sex, For One More Day (but that doesn't come out until Sept), The Human Stain (which sort of means I have to read the stories before it) and Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs (not sure how I still haven't read this....). I will try....any suggestions would be excellent!
Saturday, I went for a ride with the folks and we saw lots of foals and minature horses. Such cuteness! At night was Jan's birthday party. `Twas fun! I wished I could "let loose" a bit...when some one says speak, I shut up even more, which pisses me off. Oh well, I actually enjoy being out of my comfort zone. I'll say one thing, chipmunks are the cutest, yet scariest things ever! Hehe. Rotchill, do you like torturing me? Pictures of me on your MSN, oh my!
I'm not really one for celebrity gossip (although I do read some of it), but if this is true, it's adorable: http://www.thesuperficial.com/2006/06/01/jake_gyllenhaal_and_natalie_po.html They would have lovely babies, which may actually have brains! Yay!
I'm so excited for the upcoming World Cup! I did this quiz to tie me through to Friday: http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=283593733996835811 (hopefully you don't have to create an account to do it). I got Germany. I think the German team has a huge amount of talent, but they are not getting my cheers. Although I still love my Italian boys, their chances are close to nil to doing anything spectacular, so the boys in orange and Argentina get my nod (and yes, Italy still will get my 'hurrahs'-I can't help it).
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Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
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| Subject: | Hmm... |
| Time: | 10:08 am. |
| Mood: |  content. | | Music: | under control - the strokes. |
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I just finishing reading this article. (Hopefully that link works.) I'm not sure if i even should comment on it. At times, I almost wonder if it's even worth being a semi-decent citizen. Please note, I'm not looking for a paid sex change operation! Er, come to your own conclusions.
On a lighter note, my green beans finally came up! (Who gives a shit, right?)
Just finished reading Silent Cruise. Not sure I loved it, but the novella, NewStart2.0TM was quite enjoyable. The title story literally made me cringe in horror at one point. Poor horsie! Speaking of which, horse-back riding must happen again. Ahhh....*smiles*.
Random contemplation: Is it possible to miss something that you never actually had?
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| Subject: | *Whew* |
| Time: | 9:10 pm. |
| Mood: | rejuvenated. | | Music: | neighbour hacking....*sexy, hehe*. |
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So I walked to class and back, amounting to a little over 2 hours. I'm drenched in sweat...so gross. Random thoughts/sightings:
*2 middle aged men and 1 old dude praising their dog's urination skills
*2 empty condom wrappers (why so few?)
*1 lady above the age of 70 wearing a tube top (come on now, maybe the hubby you were working with liked it, but save it for the "backyard")
*friendly doggy....awww!
*1 PDA
*many beer/out of shape bods
*1 hot dude...damn, but he knew it, so boo!
*either I am horribly out of shape, or my allergies are hitting me hard...*sigh*
*as many buses as I could count on my hands, or less
*one typical nuclear family smoking the weed outside the skating arena
*1 rotund man with back hair
*3 sweat drenched t-shirts from me
*way to many fallacies in class...most examples talking about homosexuality, the Bible or Bill Clinton, hehe.
*1 couple so engrossed in conversation that they didn't realize their dog was no longer following them.
*skin, skin and more skin!
Ahhh, but I would still take this over the cold....*giggles*.
Okay, time to strip!
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| Subject: | Eek! |
| Time: | 7:11 am. |
| Mood: |  devious. | | Music: | don't look away - joshua radin. |
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TTC is on strike. The TTC website simply states, No TTC SERVICE TODAY. Which to me, equates to no volunteering. Since last week was a holiday, I was really looking forward to this. If only there was some warning. Gah, such stupidness!
Hopefully this thing will resolve before 5pm...or at the very least won't last long. Or maybe, my legs might finally develop muscles. I feel as if this is an I told you so moment, but I lack someone to direct it at...
I think this moment definitely calls for a random burst of anger, "FUCKING SHIT." Ahhh, better!
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I'm feeling motivated to do everything but what I should be doing. But there's nothing new there....
I wish I was here.
I hope I get to go here again. If that does happen, I hope it's as amazing as last time....the waiter was slendid!
Speaking of waiters, I've gotten addicted to this blog. Thanks Xine!
I just came back from food shopping. I'm excited to try this Mayan Chocolate ice cream that I got. I adore new flavours. Speaking of which, they had Wasabi Lays chips that I was tempted to try (for once I resisted). I'm hoping it doesn't turn out as horrible as the last new chip flavour I tried. *shudder* Last night I made beet "chips"...interesting. They taste like fried dry peppers, but that's not a good association that everyone would get. I also made my version of tornado rolls (see here for a picture which is from here). Mine aren't as darling, or as crispy, but they're tasty!
It's not even 10:30am and my stomach is growling for some lunch. Dammit! This thing needs to learn when to wait it's turn! Did I just give my stomach human qualities? Yikes...
Tuesday can't come soon enough. I need my sanity back. First place on my agenda: library!
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Thursday, April 27th, 2006
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I'm going to try and make this a positive entry, despite the fact that I might be going against all odds. I'll make it in honour of the three blissful days spent in this house...but like all good things....they are eventually due to return...soon! (Whoa, I might be able to do this after all!)
Part of last night consisted of roasting marshmallows over tea lights...little things, I tell ya, just make life enjoyable.
Jennie has got me watching "Bullshit". I'm rather amused by it. Penn and Teller, basically pick a topic/topics and tell you why it's pure BS. I've only seen two episodes, and I'm craving to see more. One was on "psychics" who talk to the dead, and the other sex, sex, sex. Coming from someone who has often wished her boobs were bigger, I must say I'm amazed how gullible some people are. One method to increase the breast size was through hypnosis. The person being treated was told to "become small" and basically mindfully push out the breast tissue. What the fuck (the swearing might be a result of the show, they don't really hold back much)! The clincher to this technique, was that the person performing the hypnosis claimed it only took about 8-12 weeks to get results, and that she only got paid through donations. Which to her means, $90 for each regular session, aka get rich off these pitiful suckers. The ficticious notions that allow people to sleep at night, are stunning. They also looked at penis enlargement systems, and what a shocker, they don't work! Maybe I'm just naive, but I never thought most men would feel self conscious about the size of their dick. I know that goes against my better judgement, but still, I'm almost compelled to do a random street survey. Ha, that would go over well. A overly blushing girl on a corner, "Excuse me sir, I was just wondering if you were satisfied with your 'package'?"
On a side note, Ron Jeremy is still the ugliest man I've ever seen, no matter how "big" he is. The fact that he has money because people have paid to watch him have sex, is enough to give me nightmares. I'm actually reminded of this Nick Hornby short (here's looking at you, Jan) called 'Not a Star'. Check it out if you like. Basic premise, Mother finds out her son has a huge dick from viewing a porn with him as the star.
So it seems that most people at other universities have wrapped up the school year. Despite the fact that I'm happy for them, I think I'm going to scream if I see one more MSN message with the word: done, finish, finito, goodbye, so long....you get the point. Having said that, I do hope you're enjoying yourselves!
Couple things about my shows.....No Dr. Coxy! Logan, how could you have been so far, yet so close? Bright, you suck major ass! I'm a loser, what can I say!
In other mind boggling news, how the hell does Jennie "bite" through loonies? Damn "magic". Hehe.
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Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
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Ahh, exam times brings out my sarcastic self times ten. I wouldn't say I get stressed over them. This year an overwhelming inability to study for periods of longer then 10 minutes has come over me. Yesterday I spent reading random people's blog, even with the knowledge of a looming exam the next morning whose notes I had not even glanced at. My allergies started to act up before I reached the examination room today, I fear that I looked like I was tearing up, ha!
Errr......this entry is going nowhere, especially when I'm talking about exams. However, life has been rather mundane lately. Quite literally, nothing happens, or at least nothing I want to share. Oh wait, there is one thing, this house is quite lovely with only two people. Oops! Did I actually type that? Must be my lack of sleep. I go home for one week, get used to my nice comfy bed that I can sprawl out in, and then poof, I can't sleep in the one I have here.
So I think my humour has gone downhill lately. Things that I've found amusing in the last couple of days:
*snap, crackle and pop of Jennie's cereal
*ugly dog with the ugly sweater
*the list of unsexy men....the fact that Tom from myspace got on it...Ha..
*random person's ranting journal
*thoughts of me slowly losing my sanity
*the stupid things people like to hear about celebrities....Example Tom Cruise once used hookers to get rides.....who cares!
*lettuce....scary.
Some people should live their lives in solitude (maybe I should include myself in this), or just never procreate. One of the kids who's in the classroom (special ed) I help out in, was telling me how his father took some of the kid's personal belongings when he left, and now he won't return them. Sure, kids lie, but let's say he isn't. Should the splitting of things in a divorce be between you and your kids? I think not. The things the boy wanted were small, and gifts he had been given. I had to hold myself back from saying "Daddy's a dick". Even if you are a selfish person, the least you can do is be a little selfless when it comes to your children, or at least save society your problems by not leaving your misguided spawns to fend for themselves. The issues you have with that person who was once good enough to screw, shouldn't be taken up with your child. I know very little about these children's lives, but what I do know is they are just craving attention. It kills me knowing that some of these kids are missing out on the level of love and attention that they deserve. I almost fear that I'm wishing demon children upon myself. Okay, end of possibly misguided and slightly misinformed rant.
Happy notes:
*mommy's spring rolls were such a delicious lunch
*my violet plant looks like it's on steroids...hehe, the only time the effect of "steroids" would look hot
*the weather is getting lovely!
*veronica mars is downloading at crazy fast speeds!!! (Hoping I haven't jinxed that...)
*lack of sleep makes me hyper......errr.
*the fact that I'm spending the summer in TO
Okay....that's all. My apologies that this entry does suck ass, rather badly......but it's an update!
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I'm not complaining about the niceness of this weather...but it is awful early to have the temperature go up to 18! The flowers are blooming, soon the trees....Spring, you never disappoint!
I've been reading some short stories. From a collection entitled "Best New American Voices 2005". Just when I was completely losing faith in the American public, I discover this, and it gives me some hope. Some excellent pieces of writing, or at least I think so.
"It is eloquently written...and the font gives me a hard-on."-Like Vaclav. Okay, so dumb things amuse me, what can I say?
Going home this weekend...mommy promises to give me salad from our farm. So excited!
I've turned into a lazy bum. I hate it! Maybe it's the lack of chips? (hehe! I try.) Okay, must start this day....ahhh!
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Thursday, March 16th, 2006
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Saturday, March 11th, 2006
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So I'm in a crazily giddy mood at the moment, perhaps because I'm listening to George Michael, hehe. Today was gorgeous! I could not wait to go out and indulge myself in the glorious sun! Chinatown was swarming with people and it was great!
Last night was Jennie's club event. It was a great success, I just wish I got to see it. The few parts I heard seemed good. I'll see it eventually. Afterwards we went to the Maddy, which was good. If only the late night menu had calamari....awww, and so the craving begins! That and being able to here the cute man (Persinger) speak, hehe.
Gah, I started this with every intention to write a full entry, and here I am, already blank. Sigh.
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Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
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I'm so utterly hyper at the moment! Tis a shame no one else is up.
I finally saw "Rocky Horror Picture Show" last night....I was amused. Must get that "Touch me" (don't know actual title) song out of my head!
So it's the second time that I have a dream that I'm totally raging at Esther. Hmmm....I just totally blast at her, throwing F-shots all over the place, while she just stands there saying, "I'm sorry you feel that way." Which, needless to say, just sends me off on a new rant. At one point in last nights dream when I had stopped screaming and was speaking nicely to Jennie, she walks by and asks "Are you still mad?" to which I just start up again. Hehe....actually these dreams kind of amuse me.
Ohhhh....I detest these jeans when they have just been washed. Ass squeezage is never a good thing!
I'm giving up chips for "Lent". I hate the hold they have over me.....argh! I've done this once before....oh I will need power!
So, tis March, which means metro pass again! Yay!
Can you tell I have nothing of interest to say? Hehe.
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Saturday, February 18th, 2006
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I hate doing these, but I need a place to vent my thoughts. Please skip or just ignore.
A couple of things I've realized from this year: how much I miss the downtown, and I'm much dumber then I thought I was.
I'm not sure what spurred this sudden feelings of utter disapointment. Driving home on a completely deserted subway car, made me feel how completely alone I feel. As I tried to get back before the last bus that night, I was suddenly consumed by the feeling of wishing I had someone by my side. Why do I get in these moods? I'm perfectly cool with being solo, yet I can't help but yearn for a time when I won't be. I do realize that love, or a dumbed down version of it, isn't the cat's meow or if you will, like the play last night: "Love is like Russia. Yes, she has some great parts, but most of it is shit." But I'd love to have someone that I could just be embraced by, as I shared all the crazy thoughts that go through my head. Who, no matter how crazy I seemed, would still tolerate me and some how find me deserving of love. I can't stand the thought of being this grumpy old woman, but I can't see anything else in my future at the moment.
Speaking of futures, mine seems so utterly dismal. I remember thinking in kindergarten about all the things that were potential career options. To me, there was no difference between the kids who wanted to be doctors, or I, who wanted to be either a librarian or a cashier, provided they were doing what they loved (it should be said, I loved pushing buttons- both figuratively and literally-oh and the scanny pen things they had at the library...yes, I was clueless). The possibilities seemed endless. As school continued, the thoughts of being a teacher seemed appealing. Come highschool, I still thought options were open. The only thing that I ever seemed slightly decent at was parts of school stuff. Then university hit, and suddenly those idealistic possibilities, were farther from reach then ever. I know I can't accomplish the things I want now, it seems now I'm just looking for a comfortable place to land my land. Next year scares the life out of me. I have absolutely no clue as to what I want, what to do, not exactly uncommon thoughts to some university students, yet I'm so envious of those who have goals, which they know they can attain. All I know, is I'm not ready to move on. I love the life of a student. For once I do feel comfortable, even when I'm alone (despite the once in a while irrational thoughts). I can't imagine it suddenly stopping, and the fact that some person will think be unqualified for grad school much like for summer research postitions, makes me sad. I keep wishing for a more simplistic time, where I could have all that I have now, but minus the thought of one day having to move on.
I've stated my intentions of wanting to move closer to campus next year. I really hope I can find a place. There's a few reasons why I don't think I can stay here next year, but the main ones include my distaste for the TTC, mainly buses, when on a set schedule and the lack of interesting places in our area...unless you count the park which isn't really the best in the winter.
Overall, I guess I just for something to happen that would cause me to regain faith in myself. Or knowing that some of those unforeseeable possibilites that I know I want when I'm being completely honest with myself, could maybe come into being.
I don't know what's more sad, the fact that I'm completely unsatisfied with life, or the fact that the tears no longer come when I'm finally willing to admit that to myself.
On a happier note, I'm looking forward to movie watching tonight, and dead bodies tomorrow....hehe. Jennie, you keep me sane in this house....*sigh*.
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Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
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Damn the addiction.....grrr....
So Sunday was spent ring in the year of the dog with Chinese food...yum! Alan and Christine came over. Alan led us to a very creepy website from former big sis on Full House, DJ about "life with Jesus". So it's not Tom Cruise crazy, but it's pretty close. If you're really bored, take her quiz here: http://www.candacecameronbure.net/. Maybe this is her way of getting back at us for never being any one's favourite character.
Christine and I checked out some of the runway shows for the 2006 Spring collections. The neutral colours seemed to dominate everything, much to my disappointment. It would appear that if you have artichoke print, spring will be the time to pull it out, hehe. Some highlights for me: The model they call Hampus...hehe. He looks albino (if only I could figure out how to post the pictures off style.com). You can find him easily on this page: Hampus. The girl with the muscular pecs, scary! The not so subtle pop out of boob from this swimsuit: number 5 (last of top row and the 6th). Other then that, I think the favourite collection of the night was Carolina Herrera. I must say that I thought the designer for Balenciaga quite cute. Apparently I was alone on that one....let's see what others have to say (alas, I was finally able to find one off another site).
I also found this: http://www.glaad.org/publications/resource_doc_detail.php?id=3219. New goal in life, befriend a male gay couple and become their live-in "friend". Why? I don't know....
Ohhh, just read an article that Susur Lee was on Iron Chef against Bobby Flay. I seriously hope Susur kicked that freckled American ass of his.....(ouch, so that was mean but I don't like Bobby, although his recipe for paela looked marvelous). How I adore people with a passion for what they do....ahhh!
My ubberly nice TA hoped that my group didn't think him a dick. Hehe, silly James.
Must do work, must do work.......ugh! If only I would believe myself, just this once.
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